From the Beginning

As some of you know, Master and I are very new to this lifestyle. We met in October of last year, and as we are in our late 30’s and have had our share of failed relationships, we were straight up with each other from the first about what we expected, wanted and liked.

I discovered my masochistic side not long before meeting Master. And while it’s very easy to find someone to spank your ass or hurt you, it’s hard as hell to find someone who can dominate you….truly dominate. I am a strong woman, as are many of the slaves/submissives I’ve read about. I must have met 4 or 5 men willing to play dominate, but not one of them actually were. Then I met Master. He is very dominate, very in charge. For the first time in my life, I’m not the one in charge of a relationship. I’m an active participant of course, but he has the final say. And oh my God when he hurts me….I get weak in the knees just thinking about it. He is the boss, period. And I adore being submissive to Him.

I will forever remember the “I like pain” discussion we had. We were on His front porch in the swing, His daughter in the house, when I admitted I enjoyed being hurt. I was sitting with my back against His front, His arms around me. Within minutes He had my boob out and was slapping the shit out of it, making me squirm with pleasure. We quickly realized we weren’t exactly in a private place and reluctantly covered me up. I was so turned on, I just had to have more. I pulled my top away from my shoulder and asked Him to bite me….He bit the shit out of me. It was weeks before the mark disappeared. I was on the verge of an orgasm then. He shoved His hand down my pants and brought me, calling me His pain slut and whore the whole time.

That was it. I had met my match, my Master, my life….and figured it all out within a week of meeting, within two weeks of first talking, in the course of an hour on the front porch swing.

From there we started experimenting. My favorites are the belt and getting slapped in the face. It just flat does it for me. Of course the paintbrush toy and the paint stick are enjoyable too. And we can’t wait to try the stick from a mini blind (thanks Rose). Being tied up and fucked is great, we are working on fist fucking, I loved being choked with his cock and fucked up the ass just as much as i love him fucking my pussy. Oh my, I could go on and on…….(oh man if we don’t get some privacy back we are going to explode!) The point it, we entered this lifestyle completely, happy, and eager to learn all we could.

Which led us here….well, to the Slave Register, then here. We started with Master Coyote’s blog, then started going down his blogroll. We love reading all of your blogs, whether they are real life experiences, second life experiences, or simply great fantasy writing. In the course of reading, we’ve learned about some common “issues” we were having….(it’s one thing to know you’re a submissive, quite another to discover you’re truly a slave) and we found that knowing others were going through or went through the same issues made it much easier to deal with. And of course we’ve discovered stuff we want to try (lots and lots of stuff we want to try!!)

Unfortunately we’ve also discovered horribly judmental people. Somehow I never thought we’d encounter this….naive of me, yes, but damn!! We’re people who own people, who beat the hell out of loved ones and enjoy it, who get beaten and love it, who humiliate, punish, cut, bite, bruise, scar….oh I could go on and on! And yet there are those who look down on others in the lifestyle for liking different things, all just a tad off of what they like or find “acceptable.” I simply don’t understand and I don’t like it at all. We’re none of us perfect, but being accepted for being outside the norm is what I thought finding other like-minded people was about….

Well, for those of you who read all the way to the end, thank you. I needed to vent….all this was very upsetting to me and being able to write it all out helps a lot. And while Master and I are stuck in the “only vanilla sex” world, my posts will be about how we got here, or where we hope to go, or stuff like that instead of being about intense, painful, satisfying sessions. And as a quick side note before I go, this post refers to a recent event….there are times when likes just don’t mesh, that’s not what I consider judgemental.

24/7

i wanted to drop a quick line and let anyone who reads know that we’re still here. Master Coyote & kitten’s blogs have touched many of us it seems, and while i could write a long blog about what my Master means to me, i only have time to write a post to let everyone know we are still together, still in love, still going strong…though things have changed dramatically!

Last Tuesday, Master and i became 24/7…well, to a certain extent! me and my kids moved in with Him. It was much earlier than planned, therefore it will be a while before we can get back to the fun stuff…right now the kids have rooms that can only be accessed through our bedroom. Soon we will have another door made and we can get back to at least some fun, not the intense painful, screaming, loving sessions we are used to, but at least a little “slap and tickle”…sighs, i miss it already. But living with Master, waking up beside Him, coming home to Him, having Him come home to me, it’s freaking awesome! i have never been happier….well, except for the house being a total disaster area! Moving 2 teenagers & a female into a small bachelor pad is quite the feat! And it will be a while before i can get it all organized.

So bear with us. We will be back soon…..

Do you have an inclination for BDSM?

http://www.quizfarm.com/quiz_repository/new/136192/ Do you have an inclination for BDSM?

You scored as a Submissive

(((Note: This quiz is not totally comprehensive because of the length such a quiz would be. I kept it sex-based because I felt that psychological profiles and motivations were too complicated and vary too greatly among people that practice BDSM.))) It feels good to serve. A lack of control in the bedroom can be fun and relaxing. Being with a dominant person wouldn’t be a bad idea.

Submissive 100% Masochist 96% Degradation Lover 86% Switch 75% Exhibitionist / Voyeur 71% Bondage 68% Experimental 68% Sadist 54% Vanilla 7% Dominant 4%

My Thoughts…

These are just some of my thoughts and memories. i had a whole blog in my head, but i lost it somewhere. This covers the highlights….

We were at my house a couple of weekends ago. We knew we had to be “tame,” after all the walls are thin and my kids were home. While Master was fucking me, He suddenly shoved His fingers down my throat, just enough to make me gag. Now, Master has something about me gagging….He adores it when His dick makes me gag. He never wants me to learn to deep throat…does something to Him to know He’s big enough and long enough to cause me to gag. So anyway, i was totally loving the gagging. From there, Master started choking me. There is just something about His hands around my throat squeezing. i can’t think of another person i’d ever let do that to me, but with Master i feel completely safe. i realize that He could easily break my neck, but i know beyond a doubt that He would never never hurt me….well, you know what i mean! He adores hurting me and i adore Him doing it….i feel so loved after he has beaten me, then fucked me.

Master has what i feel is an odd order for me. He wishes me to get milk…you know, breast milk. i lactate anyway, even though my last pregnancy was almost 15 years ago. He wants me to milk them until i get in a decent amount of milk…not enough to cause leaking, but enough for Him to get a healthy taste. So i have been ordered to play with my tits and drain them daily. This makes me terribly horny, but i’m not allowed to touch my pussy. i discovered the other day that just breast stimulation can cause me to cum….oh my, does it ever cause me to cum! i’ve only done it once, but it’ll be interesting to see if it happens a lot.

i forgot to milk them and was punished for it. Master turned me over and shoved His dick fully up my ass…no lube, no preparation. Now, i love anal sex, but you have to slowly put the dick in, let your body adjust. Burying His dick in me in one thrust hurt like fuck! i was crying and He was telling me that would be my punishment until i do my job and try to get milk for Him. i felt so bad for letting Him down. i will try to do better.

Well, thats about it. i get to see my Master tonight….mmm, it will be so nice to have sex. When we’ve gone this long, we usually don’t take the time for lots of spankings or anything. Master may swat me while inside me, or tie me up, but thats it, we’re concentrate more on fucking. I wish things would settle down enough for us to manage sex every other day or so…..

To Further Introduce Ourselves

Master JB and i are new to the “lifestyle” so we read anything we can get our hands on. It’s not that we’re afraid of doing it wrong, it’s more for the insight. After all there really isn’t a How To manual out there. What books there are go from one extreme to another. It seems no one is really right. The trick is to do what you like, and not to begrudge others for their likes.

i think eventually i will blog often. Master has been after me about having a slave journal or something like it. After all, with the intensity of our relationship, having a place to write it all down is a must….especially as a slave, where i may not be allowed to express myself.

Now that is in theory. In reality my Master is very leanient towards me. He stays very aware that we are both just beginning with this. We haven’t found our limits, haven’t really found what we won’t do or enjoy. We simply know that we are more satisfied with this relationship than in any we were in in the past. Who knew finding someone to dominate, beat and humiliate me would make me such a happy, secure person!

In many ways i’m a dominant person. In fact Master and i have talked of possibly getting a female that would be slave to us both (sometime in the distant future. I’m not ready to share my Master yet.) i can see where i would enjoy that….who knows what the future will bring. With Master though, i am a complete slave/submissive. i adore that He is strong enough to control me, powerful enough to hold out against me. i love it when he uses me, when he beats me, when he hurts me.

Well, those are my thoughts for this day. Now i plan to play with the page some and make it more our own…..

New page

Well, this is my new page. W/we decided to start a page here because W/we follow so many different blogs, just jumping from one of them to the rest. Now W/we’ll have someplace of our own to start from and eventually W/we’ll start blogging O/our lifestyle. So hello to all.

Master JB & butterfly